February 2012
6 posts
want
-To be done with this essay already
-Tikka masala
-company
sometimes I just... I... don't even...
“I’m honestly just waiting for Hezbollah to attack Israel and start a new war to distract from everything going on in Syria.” —- A Certain LC Student in my Modern Islam class.
facepalm.
there are so many things wrong with that statement that I almost want to die. I mean, I’m not an expert on the Middle East, but people so often use their ‘knowledge’ of...
all i want for my birthday...
… is clothes and gasoline. and to get tipsy with my friends.
mind you, my birthday is 6 weeks away. i think i am just greedy.
health
I have not been in the best of health lately, and I’m trying not to let it get me down, but it’s kind of hard being 21 and feeling like this is probably the best my health will ever been and it is just… not that good. I feel defeated by the chronic pain. it’s exhausting.
to make matters worse, I had a fight with the boyfriend this morning because he called my back...
January 2012
18 posts
stupid future
I’m pretty sure I don’t want to be a teacher.
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But I can’t stop thinking about being a teacher….
Thoughts
-I wish I had about $300 dollars to spend on new clothes right now. Most of my clothes are at least 2 years old, if not leftovers from high school. It’s hard not to feel like this is unacceptable. I’m desperate for a professional wardrobe. Also: Jason Wu for Target.
-On the other hand, materialism is slavery… or something. Can you tell I have to read Marx tonight? Also, I...
taught my best girl from home how to torrent. feel like a boss.
Things I've been daydreaming about
Snow
Jordan/Lebanon
France
Knitting (and I have been knitting, but it always starts me dreaming up other things to knit. I just taught myself how to do fair isle, and now that’s all I want to do all day everyday)
Owning a tea kettle
Not worrying about money
Not worrying about my job
Fixing my car’s brakes by myself (so much cheaper, but hard work)
Owning cute shoes that...
Old Year
(I tried to post this earlier, but the internet wasn’t working)
I say this with the least self pity possible: I have never had a good New Year’s Eve. Okay, not quite true. But I’ve never had a romantic, celebratory New Year’s…. I wasn’t so popular in high school, and of course there weren’t many ladies around to date, and now that I’m in college,...
December 2011
25 posts
(un)productivity
It turns out, I’m the least productive person ever. I really need to get myself together, but I can’t seem to. My thesis is boring me, and I have trouble focusing at home, but I don’t have a car to drive to the library/a coffee shop. I’m not even wasting time in a productive way. The internet is my worst enemy right now.
I keep daydreaming about finishing college,...
To do list winter break 2011
-Complete Teaching Assistant Program in France application
-30 pages of Thesis before january 16th (first draft due on the 30th)
-send emails and meet with people who may someday help me get a job
Somehow still enjoy myself by
-Knitting
-playing violin
-cooking
……
wah.
The Frenemy.: Drunk Thoughts →
thefrenemy:
I should buy another drink because if I don’t my social lubricant will dry up and die
I can only talk to people at a certain point of drunkeness
I’m not drunk enough to enjoy all these people
Goodness, I will try my damndest to reach a point of enjoyment
My bed is probably the most…
Sometimes it’s hard to be a queer lady in a straight relationship… but maybe that’s just my own personal first world problem.
To Do list 12/6
-write 12 pages
-practice violin
-do not sleep. do not pass go. do not collect $200 :(
November 2011
23 posts
I am so interesting when I avoid my homework.
Working on:
-Meeting minutes for the student government -Homework (two french novels and some articles on economic development in South America) -Not surfing the internet harharhar.
Thinking about:
-Concerto for Strings and Violin in A Minor by Bach. I’m playing the first movement for my jury next week and I am NOT satisfied with how it sounds right now. -Taking violin lessons again...